When it was token a break ,
I relax myself for about two days . Thinking about the past weeks ,what the fucking life I lived. I got tired about this life completely. But I cant quit ,
i balanced the cost , its
just too huge
to
my parents and me. we cant dear it .

i tought i didnt do my best for my study in case that i got no interest in it . anyway i chose it before , thats my fault about it . its not right for anyone others to bear it instead of me. its a rule for a true man , isnt it ?

Anyway i
got it and have a restart to the next difficulty. i think i still
wont do my best for it , but it never stop me in my further life.